Momentarily Love

A tour gives me the chance to undergo between lost and sorrow.Most of People prefer violence who with power enough, like peace who regard themselves as powerless. Almost all people just say that they like the peace, but they are taking poison from planet despite they got everything to live here with peace. I am a man who works as poison serving person in pub of alcohol and smoked. They know well than me that this is poison. I get the tips while I serve well. And the girl takes me as a best friend except life partner.

One day I am met with Alex in my working restaurant he comes here for dinner by taking his girlfriend, he is feeling the proud bountiful to getting the meeting with me again what we never thought. Alex and I worked into the same pub in pulau penang, Malaysia. He was as supervisor in there and I was as waiter. Alex does not care about color code at all, he proposes me to work into his own pub as waiter.lastly, I agree with him with so pleasure to working again.

AirAsia crew go to fly from KLIA

Alex and Azmal at afternoon in restaurant

Jake: good Afternoon Alex.

Alex: good afternoon friend. How are you.

Jake: I’m great, thank you. Well! Alex, I’m not sure of it , but people are talking everywhere is you are taking a tour to macau of china so soon.

Alex: excuse me! (Alex was checking some file careful. therefor, he couldn't comprehend about my stories).

Jake:  I heard from people is “you’re taking a tour to macau.”

Alex: sorry to forget to say you.

Jake: it’s ok, that’s fine! Can you select next the seat for me in airplane please because I don’t know mandarin and Cantonese.

Alex: it’s already taken for my girlfriend.

Jake: next one.

Alex: how many time I got to assert for you not to spoil the money by roaming,so that you offer for girl. Ok! Can I get a chance to say you something newly just for you?

Jake: I appreciate that honestly!

Alex: please try to save your money and learn the official language of this state. Maybe it helps you to find someone, and I hope that delete your Nomad forever.

Jake: that’s impossible, Alex, but Possible is I’m going to macau. It’s the same to me is “hanging to death better than marry an illiterate girl, next I like to speak of English.”

Alex: sorry to push you to advice again, but Many people are losing the better one since they want the best one.

Jake: it’s feeling so excited from yesterday after deciding about the tour.

Alex: well, keep up please.

Jakel: it’s ok, I hope deeply to reserve a seat beside window into airplane So that can i enjoy of the sky in every moment.

Alex: I think that it’s done already.

Jake: don’t worry, today I’ll do. You just tell flight number.

Alex: still I like to say you to Save something for living properly anywhere in which you like to stay rest of life.

jake: now I like to be in macau, china.

Alex: please friend, don’t try to act like a mere boy.

Jake: if I work 24 hour with each day, still I will be out of completing to my wedding with an educated female.

In the airplane

 It’s departure room where airplane passengers take the sea shortly before flying. I am looking at out sight by gloss’s window, and observe about aircraft climbing. Suddenly, call me behind, an airhostess “we are flying to so soon, therefore, can you get on airbus with us please. Thank you.” I enter in airbus after everybody completing taking them seat. My seat is middle and right side of airplane, but it is distance of a seat from window. There is sat, A chines girl, she’s wiping her face by tissue, and with widow is an English young Girl, Felicia Yap. I go to there to take my seat, but I fall in confuse deeply because Chinese girl is in a side and other side is English girl. So i go to recheck by taking the help from airhostess. “Excuse me, miss, could you help me please just for a moment.”

“It’s really my pleasure” she answers with smile.

Jake: well! I’m going too nervous to of my seat.

Airhostess: what you are trying to get in this moment.

Jake: actually, I don’t know where I am supposed to be right now? So can you check my paper please.

Airhostess: don’t worry, you are lucky because you gonna catch excellent time today, there are two kind of descendant with you.

Airhostess indicates me the same seat.

Jake: Excuse me miss. Do you mind if I come to sit here according to my boarding paper.

Felicia Yap: definitely.

Jake: thanks. I take the seat slowly except any sound so that they not feel any boring about me at all. I just have sitting like wood, do not try to move strictly.

Felicia Yap “hi”.

Jake: hi.

She enhance her right hand for shaking and “I’m Felicia Yap”

Jake: I’m Jake.

Tracy: nice to meet to you.

Jake: thanks.

Tracy: are you ok, Mr?

Jake: I’m so great right now.

I gaze for outside contemplating in remembering creator so that I am not come back in this place again.

Felicia Yap: hay, can you take your seat belt please we’re going to fly a few minute later.(she says me it with gentle sound like whisper somewhat and beautiful smile too.)

jake: oh shit, I’m here unable to wearing the seat belt.

Felicia Yap: may I show you how to do it.

 jake: I appreciate that. (Felicia Yap helps me to wearing seat belt; it was so easy to her).

Jake: thanks.

Felicia Yap: it’s ok.  It does first ascend for you.

jake: yeah, feel like that to me.

I’m looking outside continue and Chinese girl is reading an English newspaper. She’s not happy enough, not to upset too.

I tell Chines girl, “sorry to bother in your attention. I would have leaved the seat for them If you had seen close to you someone here.”

Chinese girl: thank you to feeling of that way, but you don’t have to do.

Felicia Yap is absolutely simple here; her face is except any makeup. Dress is so gentle like knight sleeping dress; there is no sex of meaning what is simply gentle female. And her long Black hairs are to divide, half on her left chest and half behind.  Eye color is dark brown. Everything was varying between us, but we are similar about height and weight. Felicia Yap was just height in 173cm and weight 49kg.

Felicia Yap proposes me to change the seat so that she can take the seat beside Chinese girl, and I agree with her. She did it because I was retaining throughout my vision through window and it makes a barricade for Felicia Yap’s attention of reading magazine.  

Airplane is flying through some of cloud, an air-hostess was crossing us, I called air-hostess to getting magazine.

Jake: Excuse me miss, can you help me giving up of your best mandarin magazine that guide me a very good idea about Chinese current culture.

She looks at Felicia Yap at first and me second with smile.

Airhostess: Of course, can I give you it some of minute later please.

Jake: yeah, up to you. You may do it in morning tomorrow if it makes you happy in there.

Felicia Yap smile with throwing breath, I got the sound of her breathing.

Airhostess: You just give me a few minute please.

Jake: all right.

Airhostess brings to me a mandarin magazine which is information Macau’s life style.

Airhostess: it will.

Jake: portraits are great but text. Thank you.

Airhost: you’re welcome to me anything, just keep a call when you need me.(she do not express any boring).

Jake: thanks again for your willing.

I am pretending of mandarin language like I know how to read it, do it with metaphor and create the sound comprehensive to Tracy. For example, ku chin kow bang chi cho fe xin tan zhi xin chewuaikuinia. Felicia Yap looks at me and says. “Hay! what the hell kind of language that is?” She put her eyes at roof and looks at me with smile to get answer.

jake: I just thought you might realize of meaning. That’s why I’m reading to aloud, but I’m sorry for wrong concept. I have been learned from bible is a person can always speak with new language, so I’m trying to go there.

Felicia Yap: you have good piety.

jake: no, not at all. Do it whist I’m intensively under attacking and unable to resist by own force?

Felicia Yap: not just you, in the world mostly weaker have choice to go to that way.

 By the time Felicia Yap was not familiar to everybody, it was the beginning of her career, probable a few thousands of people just know about her a little bit. No one knows of her modeling and playboy bunny career in airplane and me too.  In the magazine I found a sexy image of Felicia Yap, it’s was car. All letters were mandarin with it, Looks at it deeply and repent of her a little loud.

Felicia Yap: you are going to falling in love her.

Jake: no, I detest her.

Felicia Yap: you are lying to me right now.

jake: she’s gonna guide new generation simply into dark, after watching this image there will become huge men malcontent with them wife in spite of available children, this is a big corrupt to unfeeling to many people of the fact. Well, she’s attracting people by eyes, lips and fingers, now many business men toil to investigate of her address. All of them acme target are fornication with her and poor keep searching more sexy picture that just spoil important times and ultimately mostly will upset, and genius one detest her forever. This modeling girl doesn’t have right idea of love and peace. When it is said to them, “Do not cause corruption on the earth,” they say, “We are but reformers.” Unquestionably, it is they who are the corrupter, but they perceive [it] not.

It’s not my story I got it from the greatest novel. If I went to this girl to advice of morality then the answer come from her like this. “You shut the fuck up”… “Can you stop” … “you not my people who consult me” and “I don’t know you either.” (this time Felicia Yap face move to pale somewhat. Not going to say anything more. In aircraft All lights are close now, maybe all fell in asleep except Felicia Yap and me. It’s mid knight with perfect full moon. Moon light begin to fall on Felicia Yap’s face, then she looks at moon with extraordinary smile. I supposed she got angry of me, so I just keep my vision on moon in meditation continue not to interrupt her anymore.

Felicia Yap: you can reveal of reference well what’s great dictum, but I still don’t know of your name at least. (Felicia Yap comes to conversation with me again after completing the silence almost to one hour. In this moment I thought she’s quite slept. Immediately I look at her. and I get the shock watching her charisma of complexion. I look at moon again, also at Felicia Yap. I did it for a few times. In there I found some spots in moon what was not pretty. And it makes me to comprehend that Felicia Yap is exactly pretty than tonight perfect full moon, But I’m talking with her not plenty respect.)

Felicia Yap: hellow, are you hearing me?

jake: yeah.

Felicia Yap: you can reveal of reference well of what’s great dictum,

jake: I just try reference well to feeling better with you.

Felicia Yap: may I know of your name please.

jake: fresh seafood.

Felicia Yap: sorry,

jake: fresh seafood.

Felicia Yap: I’m sorry, now I’m asking your name.

jake: my name is “fresh seafood.”

Felicia Yap: you’re tourist or business man?

Jake: nope but slave. (Felicia Yap laughs loud a little longer. I got to see her teeth like Antarctica continent ice floating on clean water.)

Felicia Yap: well, where are you going to now? (Splendid diversity was through her every sound of expression)

jake: the object was to travel in the whole of china, but now I’m gonna unable to afford just in macau. How about you?

Felicia Yap: to undergo of new job from china.

jake: same to me, actually I’m gonna find a new job in china, but I don’t think so, I could do it.

Felicia Yap: why? You think like that?

Jake: in the Malaysia mostly Chinese people are weaker still they always hate me presuming as trash. Certainly it’s gonna increasing more on me in the china because the china is the world’s second super country.

Felicia Yap: why do you take a trip to Chine after knowing well?

Jake: it’s excellent question.  Well! I got to hold ambition because of China as like I bought Laptop, hand phone and beautiful T-shirt. The china made life style into too cheap for poor. Mainly I felt in love with some of Chinese girls. One of them is Tan Zhi Xin, she was not pretty than you anyway, but she’s always aspiring to be popular in the world as modeling and acting, also she knows singing about English, Chinese and Malay. Tan Zhi Xin is ready to doing anything for being popular even close to pornography. I think she is gonna unable hold her modeling and action career.

Felicia Yap: why that is?

Azmal: cause Tan Zhi Xin has huge illiterate boy.

Felicia Yap: why are you just remembering about Tan Zhi Xin not to guess of other one?

jake: she gave up me of hurt enough.

Felicia Yap: truth love comes from heart all the time.

Azmal: but it’s impossible there because she hates me is just religion.

Alex: hello! Jake. After descend airplane, don’t try to roam until getting new number. ( Alex knows well that i like to roam, so he alert me).

Felicia Yap: jake, it means you’re Muslim. (I’m silent and my face complexion move to pale)

Felicia Yap: I like hijab. (I sneer of her choice).

Azmal: many Muslim young girl don’t like hijab, in Malaysia who those girl are not with beautiful forelock, they are using hijab. And you like hijab is done me to stupid. 

Felicia Yap: my advice for you, try again to get her. I think your love come to real if you leak out of religion, because I know the Islam is among great religions in the world.

jake: no use.

Felicia Yap: why?

Jake: because Tan Zhi Xin like a hindu boy than me who came to Malaysia from my country. We were working in the same company.

Felicia Yap: how can be it? It’s seemed to me that you have misconnecting with her what you don’t know yet.

Jake: Tan Zhi Xin never show me directly that she be hatred Islam because Malaysia was Islamic state. But she told me is I’m with temper weird and thick-skinned.

I am walking on street by foot, suddenly; I receive a call from Alex.

Jake: hallow Alex!

Alex: where are you, jake.

Jake: I’m so sorry because I don’t know of how guess about spot name.

Alex: hay, don’t play please, I have fantastic news for you. So let me know please where are you right now?

Jake: thanks to make like that, so I’m gonna look at around to understand about destination. Exactly, where I’m now? Give me a moment please. The fact is you know well how I’m good about mandarin language. Probable you realize that I’m gonna unable knowing because Mandarin text around me right now.

Alex: it’s fine, now you just leave the hand phone for someone who is Chinese. The best will be for us to taxi driver.

I appear in the playboy following taxi driver. here Felicia Yap work on public area as crew.

Alex: I don’t used to know prior is you are fainted of promise.

Jake: sorry to be late, actually I still don’t know the maccau rules.

Alex: look at platform; it seems to me that she’s not new for you. In here she’s the most beautiful lady, sexiest too.

In Play Boy Club.

I really wonder, but I pretended with alex like I never saw her.

Jake: what you are talking about?

Alex: she is, who leant beside you through airbus last night?

Jake: it’s not she, Alex. Oh! I’m getting out of here because in this moment my arm like to fresh air.

Alex: your heart doesn’t wanna share anything with us. Am I right?

jake: No Alex! No Alex! The fact is I already lost the weight of my penny bag. And I have to go on bed with hungry whether I prefer to dance here.

Alex: that’s really to the worst, but it’s not going to surround you if you change your mind because this Club’s the Manager is my best friend, so you don’t have to buy anything from here.

Alex completes to the introducing between me and Manager. It makes up happy to stay in party. And I take the seat where people don’t belong at all. In there try to write something of me feeling.

Alex : can you regard in here who is most sexiest, I know that you will simply tell of her who leant close to you in airbus.

jake: it’s not she.

Alex: it’s not, are you ok or not?

jake: you are all right boss, but I’m really not ok, I’m getting out of here.

Alex: wait, wait jake. You look at her, she’s going to welcome you by gesture of kiss.

Jake: But if I go to close to her, there she like to get the smell of big money in first of all what no existent with me.

Jake: well Alex! Please do me a favor, because in this moment the money is important to me, also more important is experience of richest person. I know that your friend, Low, is working here as manager. I want you to request him to appoint me for working into public area.

Alex does to lough aloud looking at round, especially on Felicia Yap.

Alex: ok, it’s good.

Vary kind of Extraordinary smile is with Felicia Yap every turns, some people look at us hearing debate. Felicia Yap also looks at me and she recognized me easy because I was worn same t-shirt also is same every with me. But Felicia Yap is absolutely different, it was not easy to me to recognized her if Alex not let me know of her. A chance came into Felicia Yap’s smile immediately just after looking at me.

Approximate 1 hour later, Felicia Yap, came to me, and greeting me at first.

Felicia Yap: hi!

jake: hi! (Felicia Yap read my text).

“I’m waiting to be her man who diverts me to the right path when I’m under sparking light.

Sometimes I forget of my trend and find aspiration to dance with you.”

I do not try to answer of any Question because she is joking of my insane. A few minute later she holds my right hand to take me in where has some space for dance.

Felicia Yap: I’m going on dance until sick.

jake: I’m so sorry, I really don’t know how to dance.

Felicia Yap: that’s good for me, so just begin to practice from now.

I look at Alex for a time, Alex get the satisfaction enough to see me with her.

Jake: I beg your pardon to be fraud with you miss. I know it’s unforgiving corruption of pace.

Felicia Yap: why are you like that friend?  

Jake: because I’m going to deceit with you right now.

Felicia Yap’s aspect come to pale after that.

Felicia Yap: what are you talking a about?

Jake: do you know? Who is the poorest person under this spot light?

Felicia Yap: I have no idea.

Jake: that’s me.

Felicia yap: I like poor person because rich always like to change bed.

Jake: your sound tells me of who are closest to drunk.

Felicia Yap: that’s not for long time if I don’t take champagne.

Jake: I’m getting out of here miss. I will be out of control. I have to live in china with hungry at last since I like to stay here. my money is going to finishing because of just girl.

It’s time 2am, I was being back after finishing my job. The street was silent, it is raining hugely. The umbrella was not enough to protect me from rains. Sudden I saw 2 Motor cycle stop in front of me, at first they ask me for passport “hellow man show your passport” I showed my paper them. I’m working in Playboy. A McDonald restaurant was nearest us. I request them for dinner, “hay friend do you like Mc-chicken deluxe, and I’m afford to buy them for you. Do you know this is so tasty?”

 “Really” they ask me.

“yeah” I answer with gracefully. “How can believe to not taking it” snatcher try to pretend with me somewhat.

“Let’s go right now” I request them to go to restaurant, but they refuse.

“We’re sorry friend to not agree with you because we don’t have enough time” smile a little look at me.

“ok, give me the home address, I like to send meal at your home” I say them honestly.

One person come close to me, hold my neck and says “we don’t home at this moment, so you have to buy a new home” and they begin to beat me.

They take away my hand phone and money by throwing me beside road.

Felicia Yap and jake third meeting in macau

I walking on the street, there I have been met with Felicia Yap.

Felicia Yap: hallow! how are u.

Jake: hallow!

Felicia Yap: how you feel of this cheapest city

Jake: something is like hell fire.

Felicia Yap: that’s not truth, I know about hell fire.

Jake: really.

Felicia Yap: how many spot you already completed to travel?

Jake: not even one.

Felicia Yap: why?

Jake: I still could not complete to counting of the electric pillars.

Felicia Yap: how you got to terrible hit on your face?

Jake: I fell on street last night.

Felicia Yap: but It looks like someone punched on your face heavily. All are too black and maybe spoil blood is in this spots. Did you already met with a doctor?

Jake: they say me nothing to worry.

Felicia Yap: all is gonna infection. Just keep on follow.

Felicia takes me to clinic. She throws all poisonous blood from spots by own hand. And clean those nicely. She also buys some medicine for me. (Her treatment realize me that she is a medical doctor)

Felicia Yap: please complete your doses.

Jake: are you doctor?

Felicia Yap: that’s truth. I am …

Since 6pm I begin to suffer fever, it goes to worse at 7pm. I am shivering and unable to formulate.

Felicia Yap: are you ok?

Jake: yeah!

She told me after touch my arm

Felicia Yap: you are suffering to fever. You must take the rest.

She takes me in her hotel. In mid knight I think that the dead is nearest to me. Toil to care of me to not sleeping. She put a wet towel on my forehead, and changes it frequently. Felicia Yap takes just 7hour to make me all right.

We got to hear a music of “Foreigner - Waiting For A Girl Like You” from somewhere.

By the time Felicia Yap is exquisite girl with fancy attitude; it’s absolutely easy for her to choose a man by her own choice from here. 
Her adorable portrait of diversity was with her every turns, so Felicia Yap was gonna the biggest event of my fiction. I got something to be a longer dreamer of it when she talks to me. And I also got something from her when she’s upset of me stories. Everything I put in trash just recalling of Laveen. So I always accept Felicia Yap just a momentarily friend like tourist breaking pub’s waitress. 

Felicia Yap: do you like this music?

Jake: he’s my one of most favorite artist.

Felicia Yap: you always travel lonely.

Jake: yes.

Felicia Yap:why?

I show  Laveen’s sms from my Facebook profile.

I'm not your girlfriend , please do not tell everybody your thoughts , you're such thick-skinned , I'm not gonna like people who feel like he's a self-approbation , please do not write anything to your fucking blog with me , was like I'm your love or girlfriend , this is an innocent to me , don't you think you shame , you know what, you really temper weird , I'm using my own powers, I think that's better , we're done. You not my what people , you consult me all the time , telling people I'm your girlfriend , you're such asshole , I don't know you either.

Jake: do you see it. (I asked cool voice)

Felicia Yap:  what’re you talking about?

Jake: see the river there are some shadow, it’s like tiny land. The shadows are swimming on river peacefully.

There are distance each other as you and me, but they can involve in any time for rains.

(We are silent for a few minute).

Felicia Yap: why you come to this country, do you know? This state is unwelcome for a person who is like you.

Jake: that’s a very good question. Well! To begin with all, I want to become rich person than my hometown people.

Felicia Yap: can I know? When you will be rich person, and how it’s possible.

Jake: I don’t have any idea about it; perhaps I’m getting something what is so necessary for my life.

Felicia Yap: really! What’s that, tell me please. (With so pleasure)

Jake: oh! No. I am gonna telling you later.

Felicia Yap: how long you will be here.

Jake: certainly, it’s forever.

Felicia Yap: the president of this country is going to pose new immigrant law, but why you don’t like to be back to own country.

Jake: the cause is mostly development state is to the best than own one.

Felicia Yap: do you know Mr jake, each state have stupid law for alien poor persons.

Jake: that’s right, but I have no choice.

Felicia Yap: could you explain about it please.

Jake: well! I’m not finding any way to appreciate about my own country. There is nothing to better for general people, but have better opportunity from government all the time who embedded with ruling political party. Political violence is a common history for each day. The place is the worst for women, children and poor persons. Poor people have no value to rich persons. Everyday has news of rape and kidnap.

Felicia Yap: so how your parents situation in there.

Jake: just alive. I was the aim to bring back in peace state after settle my own, but now it’s just dream.

Felicia Yap: that was a very good decision. We should have moved since weather is gonna worse.

Jake: sure. I’m so sorry to spoil your important times.

Felicia Yap: it’s okay.

We begin to walk again, now sun is in sleeping.

Jake: I’ll be happy there if I purchase for you something of meal.

Felicia Yap: sorry I do it at hotel because I already include of it.

Jake: that’s very good.

 Felicia Yap: you can speak very well Jake.

jake: thanks.

Felicia Yap: how you learn the English.

Jake: I have met in the Malaysia some of people who came from your birth state. They could speak English well like you.

jake: I learn it from people with getting kick.

Felicia Yap smile.   

jake: in Malaysia when I talk with local people on English, they invoke the allergy to throwing at me.

The Same goes to McDonald’s Job for me, I have worked in the McDonald’s Restaurant at gurney drive sunrise tower and Tesco Hypermarket in pulau Penang, Malaysia. In there I got the kick from local people every day because of English speaking. Here is not finished I got the shock everywhere in Malaysia because I do not know how to speak about Malaysia language.  Some people like too much of American meal, cloth, movie and Music, But they don’t like to speak on English at all.

In Malaysia Alien people can do a lot crime easily if they just know how to speak about Malaysian official language.

Felicia Yap: I see. Well! Did you have a girlfriend ever?

Jake: nope, but I got some of too young girl as best friend. They loved me until they got to concept about property, racial and color- code society.

Felicia Yap: probably you was not deliberated enough to get them.

Jake: the prime problem was here is “From just Friend to best friend, from best friend to girlfriend, from girlfriend to wife, and from wife to divorce. It is a rule for a life partner amomg the richest countries, but I always worked hard to be a husband does not follow this rule, this is a problem with me.”

Felicia Yap: did you know anyone of the destiny.

Jake: not at all. Could you change the issue please?

Felicia Yap: alright.

Jake: where are you working as doctor?

Felicia Yap: I’m the unemployed.

Jake: don’t worry; you will get the job so soon because I know that you are a very good doctor.

Felicia Yap: I don’t think so.

Jake: I’m not pretending with you in this moment. Anyway, where was your previous job?

Felicia Yap: in Iraq.

Jake: I know it’s as humanitarian.

Felicia Yap: no, as soldier.

I lost my wait after hearing it,

Jake: are you kidding with me to know about pour?

Felicia Yap: I join to Army in October 2006 as a pilot, and deployed to Iraq October 2009, that’s two years later. Finally, I resigned the job in last years by acting of sick, came in china because this is my father country. My mum is an American and father is a Chinese.  Sometimes people couldn’t guess about me is I’m American or Chinese.

Jake: don’t mind please? Can I ask? (I got scaring too much after knowing of her).

Felicia Yap: yes, can.

(I am not the stamina to discuss with her anymore. So, I was silent)

Felicia Yap: come on Friend! Tell me! What you wanna know from me?

Jake: that was, why you quitted the US Army?

Felicia Yap: I did it after getting rape in camp by my colleague, the same time my father has been killed in his school with some students by gunman opened fire in a crowded school cafeteria in Washington State; he got the critically injuring at first.

(A little water comes out from Felicia Yap eyes.)

Felicia Yap: I heard from people is he fought a few hours to live in the world. And my mum has been dead by lung cancer while I was at 12 years old. The world is too good for who have the power and clever.

Some people may disagree with me, but as far as I’m concerned of choice is I like a girl who has well idea about good actions than me. 

Written by Azmal.

I will post later of the remaining history.

Azmal

 

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