Quote: “if you have money and keep your mouth closes of
morality. People embrace you as sanctuary. Just try to assume of Edward Snowden And Wikileaks Publisher Julian
Assange, they are guilty to Political leaders because of revelation
the truth”.
“Can you kill me not to giving anything to feeling of hurt?
My heart doesn't want to live in this vengeance earth anymore.”
“ it’s not simply good point Because after life will
become extremely terrible, so they’re busy of dirty enjoy.”
“ just From Friend to the best friend, from the best
friend to girlfriend, and from girlfriend to wife. It is a rule for a partner
for men in the richest countries, but I always worked hard to be a husband does
not follow this rule, this is a problem with me.”
In this city I am living knowing one thing is I am trash among
all kind of tribe and clan. They never care of how good my attitude but I am
hard work. All the time I am under oppress that nobody see but me. Sometimes it
seems that my hometown was the best for me to going to bed with hungry stomach
whether politicians do not interest to the violence.
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| Azmal |
In every new job, I fret extremely about trying to be at company
for excellent performance of the function, wondering want to put at my target
is to get boss and making sure they appreciate that it is not all about speaking.
I try my best to be there for bosses working hard than
other all old staff, but all too often my job has taken me away nearest stark
humiliation it is becoming caused frequently just because I am alien here. , A
new job that transports me not just to another place but to a completely
different environment of experience. This is in which nearly 80% Chinese have
been become isolation with losing them pretty complexion. That is almost everywhere
of the Malaysia, Singapore and Indonesia. Think about it: that is absolutely impostor love. Here no one female could not claim that they was sexual intercourse
with just a male in the whole life, except who went away to radical Muslim and
Christian before teenager.
A woman is like fifty-two three-year-old, Sandra, whom I
met in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I met her at an apartment which is with shopping
mall too. She would have worked in a restaurant as cashier where I was as
waiter. It is Papa Rich Restaurant; Sandra told me a typical story of culture.
She is an educated person having to know mandarin, Malay and English language
properly. She doesn't like to have drink, smoking and fornication at all, two beautiful daughters and one son has, Husband still alive, but do not have any
contact with him. All gave up her alone Because of them own personal happiness.
Sandra could have discussed with me of everything except her daughter. She
always used to deny having boyfriend of her daughter.
Chef Husoon, I have been met in pulau Penang which second
development city of Malaysia after kuala lumpur. This city is almost 400 kilometer
afar from kuala lumpur, prior capital of the Malaysia, and close to Thailand
border.
Suddenly Husoon left for hometown and become back
escorting his daughter because she is not become at home for a few days. I saw His
daughter expend mostly time into Facebook chat of a day.
Imran criticized of Laveen
Note: Tan Zhi Xin’s nickname is Laveen, and Mohd Azmal
hossan’s nickname is Jake
I went to Imran after losing recent job; Imran is one of
a very good friend for me. The complexion is like Australian people, but he
knows well criticized about someone, Imran put all condemns to contrast with
reality, so it is not easy for me to win against him about argue at all. I
decided to going to Imran when I did not find a place for my foot in the
Malaysia anymore. Imran does not like to be near movie, music and play, but he
likes intensively negotiation with anyone.
I was listening to music of Laveen from my computer with
deeply contemplating. Imran be back in hostel and he could hear the sound.
Imran have hugely hatred of Laveen because she humiliates me. So I never play
any music of Laveen whilst Imran in the hostel.
Imran: how many I got to tell you not attempt to getting
past incident?
Azmal: actually sometime I feel well after listening to
her Music.
Imran: but this lyric cut off my air. Do you understand
the problem?
Azmal: I’m sorry. I don’t know how to banish her from my
heart.
Imran: you could relate to me about Laveen so that I halt
about blameworthy.
Azmal: definite, “By the time I was angry on Laveen
enough when she uncover from her Facebook profile of my message to people who
don’t write and read of a newspaper although I informed her early that I don’t
have any close friend in here. Still I never utter a word with Laveen of angry.
And the treat of Laveen made me to realizing that is why Laveen don’t love me
at all.
After all Who those people spoke with Laveen by angry
someday, same fellows had been the best continent to Laveen than me in there.
In the beginning of all Laveen was being content with me enough, and in the end
Laveen was malcontent with me of any negotiation.”
Imran: please friend comes to the green.
Laveen has massive ambition to reach red carpet. These types of female have
nothing to feel of morality. They could take at any step to become popular in
the world. This is a terrible disease in them brain cell. Fornication is to
them like a drinking bear glass in any pub. As like they went to any pup to
drink bear, whether they go same pub to drinking tomorrow, no one say like this
“can you serve me the same which glass gave me yesterday. They do sexual intercourse with dog. Guess to Angelina
jolly is one of the most interest women in the world.
A male goes to feel at sexual intercourse when they see a
sexy girl. It’s truth according to the medical science. That’s why south Arabia
is rare of rape case. you know that well?
In JUN 13, 2014 I saw an article into daily beast. The title
was (Ending Rape as a Weapon of War)
Details was like this : There was Global leaders, including Angelina
Jolie and British Foreign Secretary William Hague, united this week to talk
about sexual violence in conflict zones.
British foreign secretary William Hague and American
actress and UN Special Envoy Angelina Jolie hosted the Global Summit to End
Sexual Violence in Conflict in London this week, gathering aid workers,
activists, NGOs and government leaders. Topics of discussion included rape as a
weapon of war in regions like Yugoslavia, South Sudan, and DR Congo. Aid organizations
say refugee camps can also make women vulnerable to sexual assault. According
to British think-tank Institute of Development Studies, aid groups would be
better off improving local justice infrastructures, but that is proving to be a
difficult task. Recent progress on this front includes the development of an
office that reports sexual assault crimes to the UN Security Council. On
June 5th the ICC, who created the first international legal document to define
several types of sexual violence as crimes against humanity, published its
plans for prosecuting such crimes.
In here Angelina Jolie is making people to stupid, this
is female acting continue on sexual movie which is increase rape case more.
Azmal: Laveen is not superstar yet.
Imran: her authentic name Tan Zhi Xin, but nickname is
Laveen, right?
Azmal: yea.
Imran: it means to me, she’s Chinese and Chinese think
that the money is second name of the God. Friend, if you have money to apparent
then you could have completed sexual intercourse as free. Like you honest man
just could hope to get the sound are good morning, good after noon and good
knight. Those who people could write down
of them a day biology They are dating continue with sexual intercourse. Mostly
imposter Bangladeshi completed them wedding with local female, and some are
going like husband and wife except wedding…
(I just was listen to her story. Suddenly Imran took a
long breath).
Imran: if you have money and keep your mouth closes of
morality. People embrace you as sanctuary. Just try to assume of Edward Snowden And Wikileaks Publisher Julian Assange,
they’re guilty to political leaders because of revelation of the truth.
Imran: sorry to forget about mainstream. That is our
first agent in Malaysia. Mcdonal’s restaurant would have paid 1400RM as one
month salary but Agent Arman paid us just 600RM as a month salary. Where are
Arman and we today?
Azmal: I’m really not feeling better in here anymore.
Imran: well! Go to another destination.
Azmal: I don’t have idea of it.
Imran: I just know you have a place to going in the
world. That’s into jail in the Malaysia.
Azmal: what you interpreted to me right now is absolutely
truth. Indeed, they love dog than us. Well! could you do me one more favor
please that’s ultimately.
Imran: of course. Just emerge from you.
Azmal: can you kill me not to giving anything to feeling of hurt. My heart doesn't want to live in this vengeance earth anymore.
Azmal: can you kill me not to giving anything to feeling of hurt. My heart doesn't want to live in this vengeance earth anymore.
Imran: it’s not simply good point because after life will
become extremely terrible, so they’re busy of dirty enjoy.
Azmal: I’m really unable to help own.
Imran: please don’t say like this. I’m so sorry to grieve
you. Like us poor and honest nothing has to get in the world. And you also
should not attempt to reverberate stories what you got from shameless person who
has the heart to act in pornography for obtain money and popularity. According
to your statement of Tan Zhi Xin is similar to porn star Lexi Belle. Men like
them just to make semen, not for wife at all. Now I wanna be clear with you is
I think that I’m a good friend for you if you delete all existence of this
fucking girl Tan Zhi Xin who is done fornication with many person. And don’t
try to evoke anymore of it.
Imran: dog is the most valuable to them than us, all of
our dictum like rubbish to them.
Imran no more try to discuss with me, and he switched off
the light and goes away to bed. Since ooze away Laveen’s existence in me. And I
divert my own to happy again but careful is not feel love with any girl again.
The region of the Malaysia never was sweet able for me at
all because I’m alien in here. I do not know how to speak on Malaysian language
despite I am living in here for 7 years over. I did it intentionally because Malaysian
illiterate of people attitude are the worst at me all the time as taxi and bus
driver. They have a firm choice for me of the worst, Especially Police more on
it. I still did not get a local as close
friend to negotiation openly. Yet I took
a decision to settle forever because the Malaysia has been extraordinary
environment for me than own country. The Major is I am crossing the time
without a big worse occurrence. In there are just a way for me, it is completed
wedding with a local girl. The step is severely stark to me because all type of
Malaysia girl too much aspiration of the lifestyle. It is also not easy to me
for getting the job because I have firmly choice to work with wholesome
environment all the while. At first of all I attempt to job in the restaurant into
alien as waiter, But Malaysia government is disagreed with me the work-permit
about waiter. Sometimes I get respect from civilizing people enough because of
my unnatural utter of English language; I also get hatred form illiterates
enough because of the same reason.
To begin with all I hand about Muslim girls, but I just
got humiliation enough even I had to leave the working place because of them
misbehavior affected then I begin to seek Chinese girl. Here mostly Chinese
girls are cool than Malaysian Muslim girl. I am simply able to bring close to
me some of girl after toiling hard. All left me number one is I am Muslim and
pure, and my behavior that is relative with medical science, but they never
uncover to me the reason at all. The entire girl in the Malaysia did ignorance
at me in first, and I made a very good understanding with them in middle. In Malaysia
non-Muslim could not tolerate about me because I am Muslim, and Malaysian
Muslim does the same because I am immigrated. In my whole of the life Tan Zhi
Xin (Laveen) is exceptional, who was best adorable friend in beginning, and the
worst in the end. Laveen hand me at first of friend, But I was fool to
comprehend of reality incident at all. Laveen goes to against me using a
stubborn. Her planning was just to terminate me from her, But It shocked me to
heartbeat. I never think to justify of the stories, because the people and Laveen
were deeply relation through Facebook where she did not belong me as friend in
the end.
Finding the job is not easy to me in the Malaysia without
any agent, it is causing because of them Laws. I have to work in the restaurant
at first as part time. Next the restaurant authority accepts me as to full-time
when they are unable to getting worker.
I am working between two restaurants as part time about 4
hours to each. The both restaurant was not close to my hostel. 40 minutes need
for transportation. I knew how to work
with design it is about adobe illustrator,
But I am not allowed to work in that way. The restaurant was huge stark
matter for me. Each day, I must have to work about opening and closing. All the
while I attempt to emulate of local people about servicing.
Huian and jake conversation in Pub
A long time later I got the job for time in a pub, it is
about waiter between opening and closing shift. All was young girl except me
and manager. Huian was the good fellow for me here in pub. Mostly girl was high
spirit about me except Huian. I also have a choice to stand off from everybody.
In Pub I have a very good of diversity as waiter than all. I never show it with
my colleague but customers because now I always believe the girl have the
beyond of ambition.
The time is approximate before twilight, I am standing
afar lonely from everybody by completing about all works of me, only a few
customers are in pub. In this state, Sunday is public holiday as week, So,
Saturday night is the most enjoyment times for people. All waitress took on
them the beautiful sexiest clothe. Huian also not exception, she is the most
beautiful girl in this pub. Huian came to me for conversation of job.
Huian: hi!
Jake: hi!
Huian: why you never want to expect me as friend?
Jake: your guess not right yet.
Huian: really!
Jake: yea!
Huian: your attitude is pretty good to me.
Jake: thanks.
Huian: you embed with pub of your entire job?
Jake: no, I don’t. This one is for me as first.
Huian: would you say something about previous job?
Jake: that’s too hurt in deep of my heart, So, I always
attempt to desert of the experience.
Huian: sorry! Don’t mind please. Why you’re not coming to
me the same way by considering me as guest?
Jake: well! They’re guest, therefore, they are for
momentarily, and you’re my colleague for a long while of days.
Huian: I don’t think so! Because we don’t know each other
after complete the working a few months.
(our conversation
was so cool)
jake: it’s not worse because I’m alien, And miserable
aliens are unwelcome among much state.
Huian: your voice is incredible nice, that’s not like an
English person, also like your hometown people.
Jake: how you know about my hometown people?
Huian: I worked with some of people, but all of them was
too stupid and not cool like you. Sorry to attack you.
Jake: it’s all right! that’s why I’m here.
Huian: you are really best person to getting.
Jake: it says everybody but Laveen. (Huian looks at me
with stranger).
Huian: Laveen, who’s this person boy or girl?
Jake: it’s a village of America within the city of Phoenix
in Maricopa County, Arizona, United States, situated eight miles (13 km) southwest
of Downtown Phoenix between South Mountain and the confluence of
the Gila and Salt rivers.
Huian: that’s so funny! (She’s smiling).
Huian: well! Now tell me who is the most attracting girl
in this pub?
Jake: that’s you.
Huian: are you kidding with me!
Jake: no!, I don’t. You are really adorable girl. Could
you count for me of how many people look for you today?
Huian: I’m so sorry, today I’m so busy. I will do it
another day, but I really could not trust about it.
Jake: A man couldn’t live well without you of those who
touched you for a time, It’s not only me, there are huge customers agreed with
me. They offered me to deliver of your contact, did it by using a big amount.
All the time I had the answer for them is I know nothing of her because she’s
the most beautiful person in here.
Huian: you’re not right to conceive at all. They have come
to me just for test of sex, So, they stand off me after having sexual
intercourse, maybe recent boy going to give up me so soon.
Jake: I’m sorry. Actually, sometimes I’m crazy and forget
how to respect people.
jake: Huian, please don’t angry on me, I’m not gonna to
exaggerate the stigma of you ever. I’m just attempting hardly to revelation my
feelings of you, and the fact will never come of sex.
Huian: well! (Huian’s form close to pale).
Jake: can I do you one more Question please?
Huian: anything, whatever you want?
Jake: thanks, I was guessing many of people come here
with them daughter, but why?
Huian: it’s not them daughter except girlfriend.
A couple customers entered in pub, Huian, went to them to
greeting.
It’s a western Pub with restaurant, all the time I wish
not push too much of alcohol on customer. One day I have been met with a Chinese
rich man, he’s drinking continue to beer with stressing. I begin to negotiation
with him while he completed drinking about seven of the glasses of beer. No
customer in the restaurant except him and me as waiter.
Jake: hi boss! How are you accepting these silent
moments? It’s fancy disgusting or pretty.
Hong-xian: it’s
simply difficult to express right now.
Jake: the same came to
me.
(Hong-xian
looks at me with a well aspect of smile.)
Hong-xian:
just keep up the joke whatever you like to do, and what’s not to reality?
Jake: I always do revelation to reality sir, but all of
those define like jest, sometimes I couldn’t put the confidence on mine own.
It’s approximately 5pm that’s for me changing the shift
of job. I was waiting to next waiter, that’s a Chinese young girl, her name is Huian.
If Huian doesn’t come to restaurant then I have to work continue. She’s working
as part timer mostly time she came here to work when she got the holiday
Because she’s still a student of the university on accounting department.
Huian reaches here by being delay about 20 minute. I
greet her with pleasure not to smile.
“good evening miss Huian.”
Huian: good evening Jake. I’m so sorry to being late.
Jake: we’re not to evening yet, it’s my fault sorry.
Huian: I don’t think so, this is your fault because whether
made up of it.
Jake: your concept is all right.
Huian bring her hand close to me for shaking-hand with
pretty.
In the Malaysia mostly educated girl ken well how to
smile by keeping own to pretty, they do not treat like Chinese traditional but
they go to western.
Hong-xian:
I don't care what you're going to say of it, my thoughts never bothered me
anyway.
Jake: could you go ahead about your visualizing.
Hong-xian:
why not? I think she loves you, and you’re going to falling in love of her,
right.
Jake: you’re absolutely right, but It’s to vary at all.
She love just of my job, it’s not me.
Hong-xian:
the real love comes from job, it’s not about sexy form.
Jake: the same story has been said by ancient
originators. Most of them got nothings from the world when they’re living in
this brutal planet. And it’s apparent that money is gonna cover the love.
Hong-xian:
where are you from?
Jake: I’m not gonna put the same question on you.
Hong-xian:
you’re really funny fellow.
Jake: I like to do when the fellow comes to me like you
ken?
Hong-xian:
sorry, I got the interest somewhat since foreigner doesn’t come by being as
you. It’s this first time to me. So I’m asking?
Jake: I was feeling huge ashamed to reply. Please stop
it.
Hong-xian:
you should not deem it at all if everywhere are good and bad, I couldn’t assert
to you that all of Malaysian are too civil.
Jake: I don’t know I’m right or wrong. I don’t feel
better to express among race, age, religion and Qualification. I just think
that we’re human on the planet. Those who come to me closer in there I speak
aloud with freedom.
Hong-xian:
it’s finest to me as a spot beside highway with endurable environment. My heart
wannna work with you here.
Jake: your heart will do it just for a few days.
Hong-xian:
you’re happy working here with this pretty girl, I’m sure of it because you’re
keeping the vision on pretty colleague all the while.
Jake: it’s not exactly; certainly I trust that I have no
choice in the country to move high position.
Hong-xian:
now I can make a chance for you.
jake: I always expect better way, it’s been just dream.
Hong-xian:
I have a small company in Singerpore. Do you like to work with it?
Jake: of course, why not.
Hong-xian:
if you work with me as salesperson, in there I gave you an adorable female
colleague to teach you of job. I think she already have a boyfriend, but not
sure of the fact.
jake: today is really perfect to me newly. Sorry, I’m not
gonna hand of girl anymore.
Hong-xian:
so, you’re gay. Sorry I don’t like to play with male about physical sex.
Jake: I have perfectly what should have to claim as male,
And I got severely shocking from a girl former That hurts resurrect repeatedly
because of her ignorance treatment at the end. The Same time I got a good
doctor who help me to prevent of this heart broken.
Hong-xian: I’m Hong-xian,
you’re jake rightly. (Hong-xian calls my
name by reading the name plate, I concealed of my prime name to getting job
because here mostly company is under non-Muslim. And I’m not welcome to Muslim
company the reason is I can not speak on Malaysian language).
Jake: yeah!
Hong-xian:
it’s my business card When I’m going to hope to see you in my office continue?
Azmal: it’s from
next month.
Laveen (Tan Zhi Xin), is my colleague again.
Note: (Tan Zhi Xin’s the calling name is “Laveen”) and ( Mohd Azmal’s
the calling name is “Jake”).
It is Interior
Decoration Company the located is close to marina
bay, Today is first day for me here. Hong-xian is as operation director and his
wife is as director of this company. I am really never afraid of job at first of
a few days when I begin in a new company because I think that the colleague
does not go to worse about me at first of a few days.
Hong-xian
told me that a female staff took on holyday today who was supposed to teach me
of job. So, today is just to Rome for me. The position for me here as salesperson,
but mostly time has to work of online. I will get commission about every
recruit. Hong-xian takes me away to
field construction to giving practical idea of job. The company working spot is
between Singerpore and Johor bahru of Malaysia. Hong-xian was speaking with me so friendly he is
smiling to every of all pronounces. It is to sundown we are being back in Singerpore from
Malaysia after completing visit field job.
Hong-xian took parking his car in which restaurant I worked as waiter at
last time. The restaurant’s beside highway about our moving. All of staff is too
surprisingly to getting me as customer. Someone was upset who those did
humiliation on me enough, but exception about Huian. She was firmly proud getting me again. Just
she came close to me and joked like former. I like intensively to talk with Huian but my heart never fall in love with her. because
when a girl does better treatment with me and it recall about Ex-adorable
colleague Laveen. Unlike Huian as Laveen used to feel ashamed to discuss in front of
people, Huian like to talk clearly
with me everywhere. It is western restaurant about steak and pub, affording is
not easy for me here. Everything is newly to me from today that seemed is the
new admirable advance is going to begin of my life. I crossed the day of new
job with pleasure extensively what I do not feel in the world ever.
Today is Saturday, It is second day of my new job. I switched on the computer and was searching
into internet to find an experience of job. I get a call from Hong-xian to
going to his room. And in there I meet with Laveen about two years later, she
looks at me with fancy exactly like former, But the dark immediately covered
extremely in my world after meeting with her here again, and lost all of
staminia. The reason is previous company dismiss me from job because just
Laveen’s issue. Laveen is sitting like perfect gentle women in front of
Hong-xian, and I was standing over there. Hong-xian was
talking over mobile phone. Hong-xian hints me to take a seat beside Laveen. I
took the seat beside Laveen not look at Laveen. Hong-xian begins to negotiation
with us.
(Tan Zhi Xin’s the
calling name is “Laveen”) and ( Mohd Azmal’s the calling name is “Jake”).
Hong-xian: good
morning Mr jake
Jake: good morning.
Hong-xian: how are you?
Jake: fine, thanks,
and you.
Hong-xian: good.
Hong-xian: well, Mr
jake, to be introduced, this is new associate, Tan Zhi Xin, who will teach you
of job here, she’s working here in this company almost to a year. Am I right?
Tan Zhi Xin…
Laveen: yeah!
(Laveen expands her
hand to shaking with me, and we did shake-hand.)
Laveen: hi, Tan Zhi
Xin.
Jake: I’m jake.
Laveen: nice to meet
you.
Jake: same to me.
Jake: It’s fine, but
I still don’t know how to speak mandarin and Malay at all, sorry boss.
(I expressed looking at the table center,
Laveen glances at me, her Laveen name is known by online).
Hong-xian: don’t
worry please, Tan Zhi Xin knows well of the English language than me.
I am absolutely
devastated after getting Laveen here again. The pleasure of job did not last
more than one day. I have known well that Laveen can not tolerate me at all,
she like to speak on English but it is not me. Stressing resurrects in my heart
immediately. We gave up Hong-xian room and were beginning
the job. Laveen was teaching me of how to work through company website, which
is the take order and recruit, but I’m simply unable to hold about her advices
because my memory is visualizing of former job incidents what Laveen did for me
in ending moments. I am recording her voice by mobile from hideout. Laveen is prettier
than prior, and her behavior is the same what was seen in beginning to meet her
more than two year ago. In previous company Laveen was the best co-worker and
friend, but the ending time she comes to me as enemy, I never perceive her as
enemy like Laveen. I am not keeping any question on Laveen although I am not
realizing of her stories, And she could comprehend of it.
Laveen: how are you
Azmal.
Jake: fine, I’m not
Azmal. Indeed I’m jake and you’re Tan Zhi Xin. This is reality, the past extremely
banishing of me Even don’t attempt to move there again for shock. ( my sound
was coming not aloud).
Laveen: you’re still
angry on me.
Jake: no, may I go to
wash room please?
Laveen: yeah.
I rinse my face
numerous and thought that the waiter job was the best for me from here, and I am
unable to stop of tears.
Laveen’s behavior of
previous was visualizing mine despite not wish. She does not like to discuss
with me at all without significant of the fact even when I went to her to
discuss about a very good vital step just for company job, then she attempt hard
to show me about her busy, but she does not bring own in this way of other alien. Laveen also never forgets to
show her pretty full of smile to anyone although she is not contenting with it.
Especially, for me was not easy to work with her anywhere.
I confront
intensively of rain when I am being back at hostel, it is almost 1.5 kilometers
afar from my waking spot. I am walking under raining; my umbrella is unable to
protect me from wet. After waking 10 minute under raining Laveen halt her car
beside me and told.
“Azmal get in car, I like to reach to your
destination”. I amazed hearing my real name from Laveen. Despite she does not
love me at all, still her memory has my name yet. I refuse of Laveen help. Answer her, “I’m ok
in here thank you.”
Laveen is pretty more
than previous job; her extraordinary smile has with every expression like
before. It is not easy to realize of her angry because she is doing better than
prior, but I am afraid to talk with her because of my hysteria matter what I
did with her in previous company.
It’s renovation
company and I’m going to work here as assistant of Laveen. Sometimes We have to
go outside to visit client place for estimate.
Today I go to bed early than other day, I’m suffering
immense tired, but sleeping is not going to cover. The visual is clearly about
Laveen of how happened the love and clash between us. How she smile for me at
first.
In dream of previous company.
Laveen: thank you
so much for helping me.
Jake: no need to say me “thank you”, Because I’m extremely feeling great after
helping you; so all of you stark job try to pass at me. (Laveen smile with
reality joy).
Jake: may I do a question please?
Laveen: anything, whatever you want?
Jake: thanks again. Do you have a boy?
Laveen: I don’t,
but when I need it, I can take someone easily if I have a lot of boy,
Jake: this time is extraordinary for me. I’m feeling in
love with you, therefore I love you.
Laveen: how can I love you, because I still didn’t know
about you anything?
Jake: please try to know of me. I’m jake and you’re
Laveen. We’re gonna dinner tonight. It’s
All right.
Laveen: no, no, all’s wrong. This time’s absolutely worst
for me. So I’m busy tonight.
Jake: never mind. We could make up it for tomorrow.
Laveen: I can’t, tomorrow I’m busier too.
After Laveen dress change for dinner?
Jake: wow! you’re finest girl, I was not seen ever.
Laveen: thank you.( Laveen smile without any sound)
Jake: and I love you.
Laveen: are you feeling well or not?
Jake: yeah, ok, I’m falling in love you really, it’s not joking
ever. (jake said it going to closest)
Laveen: I’m feeling blur of everything. Please.
Jake: you didn’t take any alcohol yet. How’s possible it
of blur? Are you all right?
Laveen: I was all right in whole of day, but now I’m sick
somewhat. It’s just for you. I never hoped you to interrupt me saying anything
of love because I’m not falling in love with you. (Laveen leaves the place
immediately)
Almost one hour later I go to Laveen again.
Jake: I’m so sorry for my fault.
Laveen: it’s ok.
Jake: did you know?
Laveen: what!
Jake: you were exquisite a while ago.
Laveen: what! You
mean I’m not pretty with make-up? (Laveen was angry at me a little bit)
Jake: actually I was seeing your lips simply like
Angelina jolly, now it’s exceptional. Sorry!
(Laveen
can set up own to extensive form for leak out of her beauty.)
Next working day.
I have been fainted
after meeting with Laveen, did not sleep well in last night because I am afraid
of Laveen all the while. I am going to worker as her associate, but unable
extremely to discuss with Laveen because of heartbeat. I saw her hair in previous
company straight, now it is zigzag mostly airs with brown color. Her heirs fly
on air if she walks. Laveen begin to teach me of job, I just reply the head by
shaking. Laveen’s sound is similar like Arizona
region of the USA, knows
properly four language those are Mandarin, Malay, Cantonese and English. she is persuading me of job what is met with
me at first time. She is toiling to realizing me the fact, but I am unable to
comprehend at all because my mind is visualizing reactions of Laveen about
previous company. Laveen was my best friend, but clash started off between us
while I offer for relationship. One day I told Laveen prior “My proposal was
not just for fornication” by the time I also said her “If you are agreed with
me, I will wed you today.” Since Laveen begins to stop with all type of story
except company job even never said “good morning”. She is treating pretty well
with everyone without me only, And Laveen showed one of most bigotry colleague
of my message what I sent to her between Facebook and mobile phone. Hence I am
absolutely devastated. After this bigotry warn me starkly, also he related to
me that Laveen does not like at all. She put a complaint against me whether I
disturb her anymore. Bigotry begins to keep on me his personal pressure and he try
hard to find a way to persecution me, And he also begins to make a good
relation with Laveen, that is not to life partner. From then I divert my vision from Laveen but
her portrait was apparent when she is walking beside me.
A few days later we are
going to a client home to estimate about construction. thought myself, actually
this job is not bad for me if I work in a restaurant then I have to sweep and
mob everyday it is about beginning and ending, but here absolutely office job
for except any dirty, and Laveen is going to teach me by forgetting departed,
So i should take experience of job from Laveen.
Jake
and Laveen with new client
The
client name is “Mr Boon”.
I
press on warning bell. “Mr Boon” comes out a few minute later.
Mr
boon: who the hell you are? (Mr Boon’s eyes are so red color; it means he drank
too much alcohol).
Jake:
hay! I’m jake, she’s my co-worker ‘Tan zhi xin, Laveen is nickname of her’.
Mr
Boon is still feeling to too sleeping. He is speaking with us by closing the
eyes mostly time.
Mr
Boon: what you want from me?
Jake:
you have been gone in our office to resister of decoration, It’s last Sunday of
your home.
Mr
Boon: I see, but that is cancel because she is not here anymore, it’s who
invited you to come here.
Jake:
excuse me sir, when she will be here?
Mr
Boon: it’ll never, we are no more together.
Jake:
may we get some of alcoholic drink please.
Mr
Boon: come in.
Mr
Boon brings a few cans of beer from cooler.
I
offer ‘Tan zhi xin’ to drink, but she don’t.
Jake:
thanks for cold drink. May I ask you one question please?
Mr
Boon: yea!
Jake:
why she left you? It’s for money, sex or other reason.
Mr
Boon: just for money.
Jake:
oh shit! This is a prostitute because they always consider money than love.
Mr
Boon: you are right, exactly.
(Clearly,
I understand that this person a Christian by regarding the images of wall.)
Jake:
You should not devastate own because of a girl according to the holy bible. Do
you know sir? What the holy bible says of female.
Mr
Boon: sorry I have no idea about the bible. Could you explain please?
Jake:
of course, It is mentioned in the book of Leviticus 12:1-5
the LORD spake unto Moses, saying, Speak unto the children of Israel, saying, If a woman have conceived
seed, and born a man child: then she shall be unclean seven days; according to
the days of the separation for her infirmity shall she be unclean. And in the eight day the flesh of his
foreskin shall be circumcised. And she
shall then continue in the blood of her purifying three and thirty days; she shall touch no hallowed thing, nor come into the
sanctuary, until the days of her purifying be fulfilled. But if she bear a maid child, then she shall be unclean
two weeks, as in her separation: and she shall continue in the blood of her
purifying threescore and six days. Therefore, you can assert that the most of girl are
absolutely dirty. And now I am going to appreciate of you enough because you
gave up a dirty part. If I explain to you as a sentence is “A woman remains unclean for double the
period if she gives birth to a daughter, as compared to a son.”
Jake:
May I see depicture of your girlfriend?
Mr
Boon: yea! Follow me please, this is that stupid girl.
Jake:
oh! How is it possible?
Mr
Boon: do you know her?
Jake:
not at all, I wonder of your choice.
Mr
Boon: what you are trying to define right now.
Jake:
sir, to begin with all, looks at her breasts is so small, next she will really
unable to serve about suckle. Finally, your baby will become too weak and
blind. You know well that the best thing for baby is mum’s milk until two years.
Saturday night
Friday is the most
pure day for Muslim in whole of the world in which most beneficial physical
player on midday. Sunday is for Christian worship day in the Malaysia and
singerpore. And Saturday is most sin day. In here mostly Chinese girls take on
the sexiest dress on Saturday even they come to office wearing it, Some of
Malaysia Muslim embrace too. Laveen also was not exceptional of it. Every
Saturday she wears a short pant what was dimension 12 inch in spite of she
knows well is I do not like strictly like this.
Car crush
Laveen’s driving the
car on keeping up talking through mobile phone with her boyfriend. I am looking
around so that I can know of street well, because I have to go to construct
sector alone later. Laveen is overjoying through hand phone with her boyfriend.
I am so feared looking at her one hand driving without attention enough. In
previous company I know well she always malcontent with when I tried to advice
of her personal life. One day she was sick of one eye. It was swell enormous I
knew it from her Facebook timeline she said in there “she is close to dead”. And
I put a comment to consulate her in there like this.
“I think dirty entered in your
eye, after that you scratch well by finger, also can be from allergy. it's the
best for you in this moment is you should study on medical science of how to
live in the world with good health.”
She
deleted my comment immediately because I am alien with different rare mind. I
look at hand to play music with microphone to desert boring. Just that time I
got jerk and screech of crush, the car overturn for a time. The crush makes us together for the first
time. I call Laveen “Tan Zhi Xin, are you ok” she’s no respond. Then I touch
Laveen softly to restore sense, and I realize that Laveen is stunned, I’m
unable to move of any side. My right cheek is on laveen’s hand like she’s
trying to make sleep and consulate me. Her long hair completely wet with blood
and hairs also cover her face fully. I got a little burning of smell, unable to
see outside because all gloss is simply unclean by crushing spots. I begin to
try to move not to giving any hurt Laveen. I call her name for a few times.
After that I touch her cheek to wake up for a few times. I could understand
that she is stunned completely. Unknown is about our hand phone. And I blow
laveen air by kissing, but it’s not easy because she’s bleeding extensively
from nose, teeth and cheek. Her lips cut by teeth attack. I inhale blood from
her mouth at first, and toil to blow air in her body by kissing. but it’s not
absolutely working about her restore, After this I press on chest. There also
not change to good. I suppose that she went away to sleeping forever, not tell good
bye by staying so close. I am screeching for a few times. No one doubt to come
close near car because they were worry of fire. Again I touch her cheek. My
tear’s falling on her cheek’s origin bleeding. I take Laveen to covering my
exhausted body what I always visualized to hug Laveen like this when we are
working in past company, but I did not expect such in smashed up car. She is
one who always wants to take me just as best friend, she also is who tried to
teach me perfectly of job. I was lucky put out Laveen from car before beginning
the fire. A few minute later ambulance and police reach to incident by turns. I
pretend as stun just to go with Laveen in the same ambulance. Police must ask
me huge question whether I am all right here.
Laveen’s
hospitalized
A female
doctor with Ambulance, she’s giving to makeshift treatment in there. My tears
are falling to going on. I ask Doctor with weeping. “She’s already dead”. She
consoles me with smile.” She’s saved of this time, so don’t worry, and are you
ok.” I answer her. “Yea I’m fine, thanks
to care her”.
After
reaching hospital nurses take away us in Operating Theater by laying on bed
immediately. In there are a few surgeries and nurses they were waiting for us after
getting the call from ambulance. I solicit them to care of Laveen at first of
all. Laveen still absolutely stunned. I continue keeping my vision on Laveen’s
face. A nurse begins to cut Laveen’s dresses from upper, and I can see clearly
massive cutting spot on her limb. Most terrible is on her right side stomach it
is big hole still bleeding continue. My weeping is going to increase more and
aloud after watching it. A nurse put a linen wall between Laveen and me.
A Chinese
female doctor Chen, a male doctor and a few nurses around me, and I am laying on
bed. They are communication with each other so friend and quietly. The Chinese doctor
comes closest to me for conversation. She told me. “Hay, you’re not with
terrible but you’re crying like a mere baby.”
Jake:
yeah. Can you tell me please? How about beside your patient?
Doctor
Chen: she’s good so my colleague is going to just clean her. It’s your
girlfriend or wife.
Jake:
nope.
Doctor
chen: then she’s your sister. I’m right of this time.
jake:
that’s also not. She was my only one of my best friend in the world what was a
couple years ago. And now we’re just co-worker.
Doctor
chen: I’m really so sorry for mistaking concept.
Jake:
It’s ok. (I’m panting well).
Doctor
chen: thanks. I’m Chen who is a new surgery. Still is uncompleted a year of
practical experience. Could you tell me of your name please.
jake:
it’s jake.
Doctor
chen: it’s not your full name right, but now I like to know of full name.
Jake:
Mohd Azmal Hossan. You speak so friendly.
Doctor
chen: will you accept me as your best friend hence.
jake:
why not.
Doctor
chen: it extraordinary time for me. Tell me of your colleague full name.
Jake:
Tan Zhi Xin, Nickname is Laveen
Doctor
chen: I see, it’s fantasy love story. I’m feeling intensively interested to
hearing something from you about your best friend particulars. Do you know why?
jake:
not at all.
Doctor
chen: in the world no one cried for me while I was into massive hurt.
At
first my mind does not want to remember of past fact at all, But I begin to
elaborate about the history consider to doctor beseech.
“In the beginning,
between Laveen and me the relation was pretty good that is first time for me
with a girl of the earth, But in the end it goes to worst, and Laveen always
used to toil to put her vision other side from me even she does not show me of
her face at all, she always put her back side at me when she comes in front of
me to discussing with other persons of job. By the time Laveen was a very good
relation with all staffs except me, there belong Bangladeshi too. A few Bangladeshi people well understood
through Facebook with her where Laveen did refuse me to add as friend on the
Facebook.”
The
Chinese female doctor close my eyes by use her hand. And tell me. “Please don’t
stop to telling of the real love stories because I’m listening to you
heedfully.”
I
sleep with so peace after telling her those few line of my background, But my
eyes is not slept. It goes away to visualize of the whole history between Laveen
and me.
It is approximate 8pm I get up and 1am I got the news that Laveen get back her sane. I was extremely too tired then.
Still I went to Laveen’s bed. Doctor speaks with Laveen on Mandarin, so I was
unable to understand anything. I ask doctor “Miss, what she wants to know.”
Laveen turn her eyes to see me, but ask me nothing. Doctor said me “She is
asking about her hand phone.”
Jake: I’m so sorry, I don’t know of her hand phone. also
lost my one last night.
I do not try to talk with Laveen at all because she was
the complaining that I have a choice to annoy whilst she’s upset. Laveen requests
doctor to use her mobile. Doctor leaves the mobile for Laveen and said her “you
talk wherever you want; I will come here later to collect it”. Laveen takes the
mobile by her hand, but now she could not move her hands because her both hands
are under pain. Then I say Laveen after realizing the fact “miss, may I help
you please” she answer me “yes” by shaking head. Laveen logs in Facebook to
contact with relatives. To begin with all she dials to her boyfriend. It was a
video call. Her boy receives the call from a night club, but could not speak
properly because he was to the closest of drunk, could not understand anything
because of music, but Laveen could see that her boyfriend is kissing a girl and
try to the dancing. I sustain the Mobile close to her by my hand. Laveen was
supposed to attend to this party with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend took other
girl not to getting her. Laveen looks at me with sulk and told me “disconnect it;
I want to call my mum.” Laveen’s mum already slept without any worry because
she knows well that her daughter expect the Saturday night with boyfriend routinely.
Laveen’s Mum receives the call after three time dialing. “Mum, I’m
hospitalized, so alone here mum.” Laveen move to tears. Her mum leave for
hospital immediately, she reached at hospital almost one hour later. I go away
to own bed. A few day later, in evening Laveen boyfriend “yang chun” appears at
hospital carrying his new girlfriend. The girl was tall and pretty than Laveen.
Yung chun brought some of orange for Laveen, but The place surround by stinking
what was to able vomit who not smoke, the stinking made from Yung chun. The doctor visit patient, but leave the place
because of this stink. Yung Chun did to
introduce her new girlfriend with Laveen. Now Laveen’s complexion is extremely dark
now what I am seeing of Laveen for the first time. Laveen talk not with Yung
chun one word too, it is possible to perceive between Yung chun and his
girlfriend conversation that they are going to famous spot. Laveen is being to Adrenaline
after understanding of the fact, I call to doctor then doctor connect air Machine
again and give a vaccine of sleeping.
Laveen begin to dream
about past in sleeping.
Laveen begin to dream about past in sleeping of how to meet
with Yung chun. To begging
with all, Laveen’s met with, yang chun, in an audition Since they have been to
the good friend. Next the meeting was in restaurant that takes them to
Cineplex. Then, the relation made up of
them to the best friend, also too free. Just not of Laveen , most of boy take
them girlfriend to the Cineplex to becoming more free. Finally, yang chun, keep
the a request to hotel. Laveen refuse Yung chun proposal at first, second time Laveen agree with Yung
chun of sexual intercourse
to keep up the relation for the long while.
her older sister call to father, let the incident
know and she take to help Laveen.
Laveen’s father is rich man, but do not have relation with her mother since he
fell in love with young Chinese girl, he completed the wedding with young
chinese girl after disconnecting all relation with previous family. Laveen”s step
mother is the same like older sister of age.
Laveen’s parent come to together a long time later because of them daughter,
her mother is too poor working in a small company.
A few
days later, I heard from people Laveen’s Father took her to South Korea for
plastic surgery.
Laveen do not be back to this Interior Decoration company
ever. Company’s managing director put me with another Chinese girl, she was too
much high spirit, and show me about her business, also she feels so boring of
me. Laveen try to teach me nicely despite we was enemy each other, she was
absolutely exceptional. I do not have any contact with Laveen anymore, do not
know about she is OK or not, but I hope she will get a beautiful place to live pacifically.
written by Azmal
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| Azmal in Kuala Lumpur International Airport |
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| Azmal in Kuala Lumpur International Airport |
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