Breaking Love

azmal onto train in kuala lumpur

It’s excellent morning today. It’s not hot, also not cool. Raining has been for a long time in knight. I entered in a stationary shop, Still not come any customer in shop. Maybe I entered as a first customer today. A young girl is in the shop. She greets me telling good morning. She’s so busy about arranging now. She’s working with so attention, but her eyes are keeping on me with secret.

Van: “hi miss!, how are you feeling in this cool morning!?”

Addison: “fine! and how about you!?”

Van: “not fine!, but I’m feeling better than other days right now.”

Addison: “why!?”

Van: “maybe I’m getting something newly today.”

Addison: “congratulation you for that!.”

Van: “thank you so much for admiring.”

Addison: “pardon me?”

Van: “thanks for admire.”

Addison: “I’m so sorry sir not to understanding the word of admire. What you mean by admire?”

Van: “it means, appreciate.”

Addison: “I’m so poor to understanding than speaking.”

Van: “it’s not truth to me because you can speak on English so well.”

Addison: “thank you, l always speaks in the Malaysian language. Here all customers are local residence. They don’t like to speak on other language. I also studied in Malaysian school where I almost all on Malaysian language.”

Van: “still your speaking voice is sweet than me of English.”

Addison: “I don’t think so!.”

Van: “you can go on working when I find what’s looking for. Then I must call you in that time. I’m seeing around a lot of working of you.” She begins to arrange products again. She completed down display. Addison fetches a stair from store to display upper rack.  Some Product falls down from her hands. I was so near her then. I picked products to giving her hands before her get down planning. I co-operate Addison until completing display.

Van: “miss, may I know your name please.”

Addison: “it’s Addison, Warner Addison.”

Van: “Warner Meaning, army-guard, this name is of Old German origin.”

Addison: “and about Addison!.”

Van: “Are you American!.”

Addison: “No, I’m Malaysian.”

Van: “your name is so popular in western country, you know about that.”

Addison: “yes! I’m listening to you in first.”

Van: “I’m not joking with you now. The name is popular as a disease in there.”

Addison: “excuse me not to understanding of that.”

Van: “Addison’s disease is an endocrine or hormonal disorder.”

Addison: “sorry, so bad huh!.”

Van: “not so bad!, it is characterized by weight loss, muscle weakness, fatigue, low blood pressure, and sometimes darkening of the skin in both exposed and non-exposed parts of the body.”

Addison: “really!. I did not know before something.”

Addison: “thanks to do it. Continue please.”

Van: “it’s termination by me. I have to study more for next steps.”

Addison: “And your name?”

Van: “George Van, you can call me as van.”

Addison: “what’s mean!?”

Van: This name of Danish origin means “of.”  George’s a word in world about popular name. all George’s lucky just except me. God gave a lot of thing who name is George before. Now god’s giving shock in a few them because they utilized the power with wrong way to make more power.

Addison: where are you from sir?

Van: it’s up!. I came from up.

Addison: it’s not my question answer rightly in there; I know you have come in Kuala Lumpur by aircraft.

Van: sorry for that mistake. I came from me mum. (I thought that she’s feeling disgusting after listening it).

Addison: everybody has come from mum. I like to know where’re born.

Van: it’s not on moon but a planet. I’m born in this world. The word is my country.

Addison: actually I’m asking you now. You’re living in the world so you must have to belong with a passport, it’ll be to approve yourself as an honest person. So you have a passport you have got it from where.

Van: I have a choice to talk with gentle people honestly. That’s why I’m telling to you what’s truth, I’m not carrying a passport with me.( her face faded after hearing it)

Addison: what you do when you meet with police.

Van: don’t worry for me please. I already collected some illegal paper to protect me from police catching.

Addison: do you think it’s enough for you in the Malaysia. ( she’s working continue and talking with me, sometime she looks at me for glance with great smile, her smile’s impossible  for me expecting from anyone. It seems to me that she’s a great friend of mine).

Van: it’s not enough to protect me from police catching, but it’s enough after adding some dollar.

Addison: sorry!?

Van: if I think that this fake paper it’s not working well, I’m going in darkness mail box from today. Then I just add some dollar with papers.

Addison: how much!?

Van: it’s not same all the time. It’s depended on situation.

Addison: can you live here forever just depending on such system?

Van: of course not, Maybe I will be exactly any day where I’m supposed to be.

Addison: you’re so clever people what watched just in movie.

Van: it’s not truth directly.

Addison: why!?

Van: because I’m so alone in my world yet. If I were clever enough, then I used to be able to belong with someone, what want my heart honestly.

Addison: I could feel better if you terminate the tale. And I’m requesting to you not to try expressing the real fact near anyone. Don’t trust someone in this ferocious world. The tale is able enough to fetching the biggest trouble for you; and you will be absolutely unable to face in there? (She’s advising me with so fearful and looking around from then. it appears to me that she’s illegal immigrant and me not).

Van: thank you for your advice. Why you’re so nervous than me about tale?

Addison: Mr. Van you can see around earth. Who have accepted jail as them home, mostly people is illiterate about them country laws and regulations. In my opinion, you don’t know about our country laws and regulations, you’re an illiterate about it. If you know that rightly then you never come as illegal immigrant in overseas.

Van: I’m feeling some change listen to you, it’s real what I didn’t think before ever.

Addison: don’t worry of it; God can help you of trouble. Why you have told me the truth history?

Van: because I’m right there, you’re a good girl for me.

Addison: how you have been known that I’m a good girl for you, bad girl also can be?

Van: considering the face, human have a match with them drawing somewhat. So People cannot speak well without supporting their eyes. Miss, you just look at around, you can see easily in there that not same image between a general worker and a teacher. They’re different about speaking image and behaviour. A drug addict and A doctor also not same, many things are different in them.

Addison: I’m not going to disbelieve those proposals’ But you should know about situation. Who has the finest face they also fetch a altering to betray with innocent considering situation.

After buying product from shop:

Addison: Please not lose the paper, if you have a plan to take advice about it.

Van: why you forget me? That’s why I have to come with paper.

Addison: because today is my last day here.

Van: it’s exactly bad news for me.

Addison: maybe it also can be good news for you.

Van: I don’t think so. Why did like this?

Addison: I will join with new job. It’s in next week?

Van: what type of job is it?

Addison: that’s secret!.

Van: I think this is a better job for anyone. You’re working here just alone. That’s why environment is so good. People suffer much trouble sometimes in job If they work in illiterate. They try to make five troubles for you when illiterate find a wrong of you. And you work in educated, when they find a wrong in you, they think human can mistake at any time.

Van: do you know I have a choice to connect with good human, for making myself to good more. So don’t mind please, could I expect for your contact number.

Addison: pardon me please; I still didn’t memorize any number. And I have left mobile at home by mistaking.

Van: mobile is not good connecting with each other, especially young girl. Sometimes unknown people disturb them for a long time. So they alter hand phone number for small problem. That’s why email is better than hand phone number.

Van: Miss Can you give me short paper and pen too. (I take preparation to writing her email address)

Van: I think your email address is with yahoo. Most young generation belong with yahoo because of update news. Same is to me; Yahoo is good site for update news. Now let me know your email address please.

Addison: I don’t have email anymore!.

Van: you had supposed to have it. Maybe you’re ignoring me.

Addison: don’t mind please. You’re my customer. I respect you from me heart. Actually I don’t have any laptop and desktop, even my hand phone is so simple, it doesn’t have internet connection.

Van: sorry, But you can go in internet café sometimes for information.

Addison: there are not better environments into internet café. I have gone a few days in there. Some people enter among sex link by keeping them glance on me.

Van: Oh!, my fault here to angry you except knowing anything about you rightly. I’m Sorry for that.

Addison: that’s all right.

Van: if you think that a friend standing in fronts you, then I can write my number for you.

Addison: it’s my pleasure!, thank you for utter it.

(I wrote my hand phone number for her in a short paper).

One young girl entered in shop with rushing and says, “Addison, what the hell you give me, my baby always suffer food poison after give it, why you cheat with me, I buy it free huh”. She was telling  Addison with loudly and angry.

Van: miss your baby’s always meeting with food poison. It’s problem not with milk. I imagine that your nails so dirty and long. That’s why it’s happening.

Now Customer is so angry on me. “What! I’m dirty you wait for me here I’m coming here again”. She goes back  to her husband after warning me.

Van: this young customer is uncultured huh!?

Addison: no, she’s my good customer.

(Young girl fetch her husband to meeting with me a few minute later. Her husband asks not anything, but He’s punching me with scolding through Malaysian language. Addison requests to them to stopping it.)

Addison: please stop it! I will change the milk or give back all money.

Young girl customer: I don’t want milk. I want money.

Addison: take your money please what you paid me as milk value. (Addison does it with rushing).

[Young girl customer throws milk pack on me mouth. And told me “tell your girlfriend to blending the milk with ice water for you’’.]

They left the shop talk each other scolding ours.

Addison: why you involved with my matter without knowing anything?

Van: to find some different feeling with you.

Addison: please don’t do it again anywhere?

Addison took some liquid medicine. And touch me on all bleeding spots softly even lips by wool and medicine. She utilized right hand to do it. Addison gives some medicine as free.

Van: miss, can you do me one more favor please?

Addison: you’re most welcome there.

Van: I’m so thirsty right now, can I get a glass of water please.

(Addison takes a powder mango packet from her personal bag to making a glass of mango juice for me)

Van: I just wanted water, it not belong any juice.

Addison: maybe I know what you should take in this moment. So I will just try to go there.

Van: thank you so much for your favor, but my teeth are unable to take cold drink. I think it’s so cool to me. So can you give me just plain water please?

(Addison takes out the glass and tells me for taking seat, she made one more mango drink for me. It’s warm)

Van: sorry to spoil your mango flavour.

Addison: not need sorry all the time. It’s not to spoil because I will take that one now. Do you feel that you’re perspiring now?

Van: yea, it’s not so much.

Addison: why you don’t drink cool in such high temperature situation.

Van: because most cool food and beverage have bacteria. Bacteria have the best choice to sleeping in cool. bacteria struggle with each other for dinning after getting a little bit warm, And I can feel food poison because of them struggle.

Addison: nice to listen to you, and anything else!.

Van: not believe anyone but I think ant-fluoridation has within cold drink. It spoils teeth so soon. You look at around Malaysia. You can see easily it. Most of Malaysian likes to take cold drink all the time. That’s why they’re unable to smile the finest way Cause they don’t have teeth in nice enough.

Addison: how long you studied?

Van: sorry to not getting it?

Addison: you already have completed a degree in the university, huh!

Van: it’s been a long far for me Even I never went in primary school for a day.

Addison:  I don’t think so. You’re trying to hide something newly.

Van: sorry.

Van: hence can we become just friend please.

Addison: it’s not bad.

Van: the time already turn to afternoon.so I’m going to follow you for taking lunch together. I wish you agree with me now please.

Addison: well, we’re going to the nearest restaurant. And what type of food you like to dine now?

Van: whatever you will like I must appreciate that?

Addison: then you just follow me. We have to cross the road at first.

(A police car was exceeding our by road, police halt following me, I was not attending on them)

Van: do you know Addison, someone always interrupt me in good times.

Police helmy: hello-hello hello.

Van’s listening to police. But he’s not answer after listening to second time.

Addison: police is calling you. Please respond it!

Van: are you looking for me, sir!

Police helmy: tengo passport’ (Police ask me to showing passport. Two police are here. Hafiz and helmy are them name. hafiz is standing a little far from ours. Attitude of hafiz is looks like a shooter; I guess that he is going to shoot someone. And helmy’s asking questions ours.)

Van: I beg your pardon.

Police Helmy: tiada passport pergi balai.( don’t have passport, let’s go with me in police station).

Van: I’m so sorry sir not to understanding what you’re telling me.

Police Helmy: bole chekup malau(  you can speak Malaysian language)

Van: I’m so sorry for that I don’t know how to speak on Malaysian language.

Police Helmy: ta paham malau (Not understand Malaysia language). Passport where?

Van: it’s at home.

Police is speaking with gabble like a baby. Addison is so fearfully than me. I thought that Addison is illegal and I’m legal here.

Police Helmy: go police station now.

Van: why? Can I know please about it?

Police Helmy: you mia orang bania tipu and bodo. (You are cheater and stupid)

Van: I’m not realizing it sorry?

Police Helmy: bodo orang tada passport tada jalan( stupid, no passport, no excuse).

Van: I do not understand the problem now, sorry please?

Police Hemy: abang hafiz datang sini maf. Not understand not understand.(brother hafiz come here)

Police Hafiz: not passport, not walking understand. Can not speak so much?

Addison told to police being nearly. Something has with him for approval. Now police ask Addison to showing her passport. Addison showed police her IC (Malaysia identification card). Hafiz gives back Addison identification card after checking.

Police Hafiz: what your country?

Van: it’s written in passport photocopy.

Police Hafiz: your passport photocopy not good, can not read, not clean, come with me i send you police station.

Van: listen to me friend. I’m so hungry now, if you arrest me here, then hungry will belong for a long time. Help me friend please, I’m a good friend for you, you know that hence.

Police Hafiz: don’t want foreigner friend.

Van: sorry; then you’re my good brother. That is inception from now.

Police Hafiz: why not bring your passport. You understand after go jail.

Van: please sir, don’t say that. Trust me please; I like to carry passport with me all the time, but I’m unable to doing it because rain never consider about my problems. Everyday rain on me without considering the time, that’s why I carry passport photocopy with me sometimes.

Police Hafiz: where you work?

Van: it’s in a manufactory.

Police Hafiz: what name?

Van: air mineral sdn bhd.

Police Hafiz: what you do there?

Van: I’m just general worker in there.

Police Hafiz: enough now. We have many job today, I don’t know your case. Come police station, you talk with big police officer there.

Police Helmy hold hand locks to wearing me, I was sure somewhat about it, I can’t protect myself anymore. I must have to live in jail from today.

Van: sir, listens to me please. Listen to me.

Van: hence I promised with you. I always carry my original passport with me everywhere, but I strongly believe that I don’t have to carry passport with me all the time from next year because I will fetch a changing in me from next year.

Police Hafiz: what that,

Van: she’s going to be my passport. I will marry this finest local girl so soon. She’s my fiancée, girlfriend is now. And future will be wife.

Police Helmy: miss awa mau kabin itu masalle orang( miss you want to marry  this foreigner Youngman)

Addison: yes. Itu sia baik kawan. Sia cinta bania bole kabin. (Yes, he’s my best friend, I love him too much, and I will marry him soon)

Police not try to disturb me anymore.

Police Hafiz: how come punch spot? Who punch your face? Come with me I do a case against them who did it.

Van: I’m thankful to your cooperation. Not need that because she’s my nearest friend.

Police hafiz: I see. Miss Addison please take care your fiancée. Bye;

Van: “I’m grateful to you forever to saving for second times.” I told it Addison with sulk face, but Addison not makes any reply.

Van: I’m extremely sorry to insult you in front of police. Forgive me for what I’ve done. it’s my fault here. I didn’t it from me heart. I just acted with them to saving the life for this time.

Addison: “it’s all right; I don’t mind anything of it.”

Addison escorts me into Restaurant. We enter in a restaurant where’re available local food?

Addison: it’s a local restaurant, all type of people come here for dining,

Van: do they come not for dating?

Addison: yes, that’s also included into all restaurant in the Malaysia. So you can order your favorite food now.

Van: can I begin after you please.

We’re talking standing then. Suddenly one Malaysian ask me behind, “tapizki bodo” (go sight)

I was unable to realize the story,

Van: sorry sir?

Now he told me with disgusting “itu bania sosala tada tengo”( it’s a lot of rude behaviour, can’t see, looks like blind)

Addison: van, move please doesn’t try to make a question for him.

Addison: do you have any choice in dining?

Van: it’s not for today. Now up to you.

Addison: I see!.

Whatever Addison took that I took?

Addison: are you following me?

Van: yeah, to feeling something different again.

Addison: those are Chinese food. Do you like Chinese really?

Van: I will try to tell you the truth all the time. I like you so I like Chinese food. I’m going to take it for first time of my life.

Addison: Mr. Van what’s wrong with you?

Van: sorry (it did with scare)

Addison: I mean you always have to carry such misbehavior from local people.

Van: you’re not right here. It’s happening just for you.

Addison: just for me!, why I am guilty here?

Van: you’re not guilty, you’re absolutely alright, but your beautiful face is guilty exactly. People is considering me that I’m not handsome enough, but you are the finest girls. So people is warning me about that to avoiding you. And they are thinking that they’re missing you because of me.

Van: do you mind the bad about me. I wish I make a few question about that your personal.

Addison: no, don’t mind a wrong? You can do me at any question. Whatever you want?

(I thought it will be better not to asking any question about her personally).

Van: are you feeling well now?

Addison: no. because the place is so noisy.

Van: sorry to bring you here.

Addison: was that your question? And you don’t have to say the sorry with small mistake always.

Addison: you didn’t bring me here, I brought you here. So I’m going to say you, sorry!.

Van: but you came right way. That’s in a pleasure!.

Addison: probably, hence it used to be more pleasure matter for you If I have left you alone in meeting police. Where’re you now? Do you feel of it? (She told me it with fantastic smile and closes an eye for once).

Van: you’re really a genius finest gentle girl to realize about future fact.

Addison: how many girls you have told it?

Van: that’s a very good question to me, there are thousand over, but that’s absolutely within different ways.

Addison: as like?

Van: I told the story without knowing about them. And I told you knowing about you.

Addison: you should was tried to knowing about them so that you could be selected a good life partner from them.

Van: it’s ok, but it’s impossible because I have been meeting with this all girls through the world’s largest betrayer website Facebook.

Addison: Facebook’s the most brilliant website to spoiling their boring times.

(The waitress not tries to attend on me story. Addison paid lunch expense despite I requested a lot of way not to do).

Van: I told you at first about lunch, but you paid expense. Why you did it?

Addison: I think your earning is lower than me. And you bought something from me. Maybe you don’t have money enough now. So I tried to decrease your loss.

Addison: why you don’t have any land in the earth.

Van: I never tried to make it.

Addison: why you did that?

Van: all the while people are so busy in this earth to conquer land; they’re still struggling with each other for land, even massacre innocent of people including Childs. That’s happening everywhere. I am inclined to believe that it’s hard to make a land for me. I must have to involve with struggling where it are easy for me. I’m so free now-a-days; I go away to a new place with a new time around when a war comes to cover me.

Addison: “I wish I could talk to you more, but I have to be off now.” We’re shaking hands..

Van: I’m really glad to meet with you.

Addison: same to me. I’m also really glad to meet with you.

In the train

Same day knight I’m being back in living place from Kuala Lumpur by train. Addison is reading a newspaper by keeping her full of mind. I was so happy to seeing Addison here. I thought that the knight is not today for resting.

Van: hi Addison.

Addison: oh! you’re here, what the hell you’re doing in this midnight. Are you so busy to find someone in night huh?

Van: no, I don’t?

Addison:  do you know that? A lot of the sexiest girls have in this colorful city. They’re able to make you into so cool. (She’s talking with unknown attitude, and I also talked following her attitude somewhat).

Van: they’re not pretty so much to me because they’re unable to make a better part with anyone.

Addison: where’re you going to now?

Van: in my hostel.

Addison: which place is that?

Van: its three stations later, and you.

Addison: just nest one after you. (Addison’s reading newspaper and talking with me together)

Van: it’s 00:07 am. So your newspaper passes away.

Addison: “it’s right. Therefore, I am going to stopping it.”

An older man coughed standing, Addison looked at old man. Addison left her siting seat for old man.

Van: it’s mid night now. Still people are so many in trains. Why?

Addison: the train provides for night less than day.

Addison: where you went just now?

Van: in city.

Addison: why you plan to travel everywhere? that’s not safe for you enough.

Van: thanks to concern. Actually, I went to bring my salary, I worked in there before.

Van: maybe we get not any place to siting for today in train. Miss, station is nearer me for getting down; could we be meeting again ever?

Addison: maybe not meeting will become a good  for us, Mr. van.

Van: why you accepted wrong way about me.

Addison: you’re not right here, I accepted not wrong about you. I just said you the truth. If we meet for second time; then we will be closer friend.

Van: you’re right. It’s up to you. I just will request to you all the time.

Addison: sometimes it’s wrong because Addison’s disease is an endocrine or hormonal disorder.

Van: i just joked with you in that time. Sorry to do that.

Addison: no, you said the truth fact by joke. Sometimes people leak out the truth by mistaking.

Addison: many people marry after a long time dating, but they like to separate one day. Dating means a closer friend, and marring means a closest friend.

Addison: if you want to know about anyone properly. So you have to live in same home with them for a long time together.

Van: you’re all right here. And you just tell me please. Where and when you like to see me again?

Addison: I’m not hopping about it. It must be good for you not hoping too. (she get down with me).

Addison:  please accept my apologies at first. I already went away within administration. I am a police officer of immigration. And I’m going to belong with a new life from next weeks.

(I lost away stamina after listen to her. I couldn’t speak with her anymore after trying hard).

Addison keeps that paper in my pocket, which paper I wrote my hand phone number and email address. She touches my cheek softly by her right hand finger. And told me

Addison:  “good boy, take care yourself properly.   Mr. Van The place’s not safe enough for you.”

Addison got on train, and the train closed the doors.

Written by Azmal. On July 6, 2012